Tuesday, January 24, 2012

lost in my mind

My journal is the clearest evidence that I spend more time in my head than anywhere else. All those pages of psychoanalysis and ramblings are what I deal with every day, in a much less organized manner. My mind is both a terrible and delightful place to be. Terrible, lately, because it's crazy in there and nothing makes sense, and it's awfully depressing a lot of the time. It can be delightful when it's a place for memories and wishes and dreams to convalesce but when those thoughts that inhabit it aren't as lovely, well, that's when I need to get out.

I need an escape, and there are all sorts. Sometimes, I listen to music but more often than not I find a way to relate the lyrics to my life and end up overthinking again. So I read a book or watch TV. I pretend I'm at Hogwarts or Downton Abbey and I pretend the characters are real, because even though there is ugliness in them, too, they can never hurt me. Everything from my world is forgotten when I slip into theirs.

Maybe so much escapism isn't healthy but certainly being immersed in reality all the time isn't ideal, either.


  1. Oh my goodness, I'm the same way! It's nice to know I'm not the only one. :) How I love escaping to other places...lovely picture by the way!

  2. i spent literally an hour writing in my journal this evening. i was just daydreaming about downton abbey. i think secretly our minds are collaborating. :P great post :))
    -jocee <3

  3. I'm not sure if you were thinking about music when you titled this post, but there's this really nice song called "Lost in my Mind" by the Head and the Heart. :)

    1. That's exactly where the title came from! I love that song. :)

  4. Escapism...ahh, bliss. I do this so often as well!
    And I love Downton Abbey! Especially William, he is just a dear. The new episode coming on in a couple hours has made the history essay I just had to write somewhat bearable.
    I often escape into my mind though...I spend a lot of time, but I don't write too much of it down. I do have the nudging to re-start my journal, but have yet to take that plunge.

    --Liz B :)


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