Thursday, September 06, 2012

dear you,

Today, when you said that you were tired of being sad, I wanted to say, I'm tired of you being sad, too, so chin up, buttercup. I wanted to say, there are so many things to be happy about in this world! I wanted to say, have you ever thought about how amazing it is just to be human -- not to be a rock or a grain of sand or a single cell organism, but a human -- a living, breathing human being, today, right now, on planet Earth? Don't you know what a miracle that is -- what a miracle you are? Why would you ever want to waste that by being sad?

Maybe it's because life is relatively manageable right now, or maybe it's because I've just gotten better at managing it and taking everything in stride instead of freaking out, but I'm pretty happy most of the time. So it hurts me to see other people hurting. I want to make it better, but at the same time, I'm not quite sure how. I always mean to say something: Don't hate yourself. You deserve happiness. I don't know if I love you, but trust me when I say that someone does.

But those are just words. Just silly little words, and they always catch in my throat, and you never quite look at me at the right time, and well, it just never happens.

There are so many things I wish I could tell you, but I also know that sadness can be quite irrational and hard to control, so maybe it's all futile anyway. After all, you can't ever save people. You can only love them. And so maybe all I can really do -- better than any lectures or advice, however well-intentioned -- is just to let you know that you are loved.

love, me

(The crux of this was written a while ago, with a few different people in mind.)


  1. This was beautiful. I sincerely hope the right person gets to read it. xo

  2. I doubt this was written for me, but it's just exactly what I needed to hear right now. so yeah.

    you're pretty wonderful (and pretty pretty) and great and just, thanks for this.

  3. 'I don't know if I love you, but trust me when I say that someone does.' This, forever and always amen.
    Bookmarked for broken days.

  4. This is exactly what I needed today.

  5. this is perfect. love love love love.


  6. Love this. Sometimes I just feel really... Ugh. Then, you realise that there's great stuff out there, like singing 'build me up buttercup' and insisting that you don't dance around in your bedroom. There are in-jokes that never get old and friends to text at random. There are family to hug and there's chocolate to eat and there is life to live.

    Anna x

  7. okay so I bookmarked this and also marked it as unread in google reader so I could read it again. which I just did. and it's still incredible.


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