Sunday, April 21, 2013

some people say they're clumsy and then some people are me

Getting hurt is,
more than anything,
a lesson in patience.
I started learning this the day I tripped on my shoelaces
for the second time in two weeks
(the first time I laughed,
the second time I cursed and cried.
Jokes get old pretty quickly).
My knees were so full of colors that didn't belong,
textures that weren't quite normal.
My palms were breeding grounds of blood and dirt --
okay for a child in the sandbox,
not so much for someone my age.
People would ask,
what happened?
and like everything else I'd smile, laugh, say,
I fell.
We all fall down --
that's gravity, that's life
but I don't see anyone else here
whose skin is such a tangible and vivid painting
of their own gracelessness.
Someday soon I suppose these wounds will fade and
instead of Bandaids I'll wear scars.
Right now I am still waiting for the pain to stop
telling myself
in between every breath
that in time all things go.
Even this,
maybe especially.

7 comments:

  1. ... Okay, woah.
    Could you tone down the freaking-amazing-at-writing vibes a little? You're intimidating me.

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  2. What Grace said, basically.
    Just... wow.
    This is SOO good.

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  3. i thought of this quote while reading: "Everyone who terrifies you is sixty-five percent water. And everyone you love is made of stardust, and I know sometimes you cannot even breathe deeply, and the night sky is no home, and you have cried yourself to sleep enough times that you are down to your last two percent, but nothing is infinite, not even loss. You are made of the sea and the stars, and one day you are going to find yourself again." -Finn Butler

    this is really really good. let's just say this year/last year hasn't been the best year for like a million reasons that i don't even wanna go into. but i'm in the process of letting go (because it really is a process; i can't just let go) and this actually really helps. so thank you for that (no, really, bless you). and keep writing! you are brilliant.

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  4. i've said this a thousand times but i hope to say it thousands more--
    kendall, you're the coolest.
    i love what you write <3

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  5. I absolutely... adore this... I'm so glad there are souls out there that breathe the same air as mine does, remind me that I'm not alone. Thank you. <3

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  6. Oh gosh, you're incredible. That's all I really have to say...

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